Pursuit of Happiness

Pursuit of Happiness

I have watched this movie a number of times now, and every time I watch this movie and try to realize that what’s exactly is the pursuit of happiness, and also I keep wondering why in the movie was the hero bestowed with happiness only in the last three minutes of the movie. I think it’s rightly said some where; pursuit is the word for happiness, for happiness has to be searched and can’t be found on the way out. Also I watched the movie “Taare zaameen par” yesterday, I shouldn’t have watched that movie, I mean I wanted to watch that movie but I knew some how that I wont be able to stop myself from crying after watching the movie. And I was right, I started feeling home sick, missed my mom around me missed my childhood. Childhood... aaah .. what a time it was, when innocence circumscribed us from all the begrimed world around us. At that stage I always used to dream of growing big and gain the independence of my thought process, but some how now I realize that it was a shiny illusion that eluded us to grow, real life is good when it’s full of purity and innocence. As we grow up we are bound to streamline the way we think or act, boundaries are drawn, we think and work in parallel with a virtual sphere that has thick layer of encapsulation over us called the society. Off late I have seen this hindi movie called “Yahaan”. I don’t know how did I ever skip this movie, but still am glad that I did watched it now. It has many beautiful songs but the one that still rings bells is the one called “Urzu urzuduru kut”, it’s a Hindi one but has some this one line in Kashmiri, a very beautiful song. The virtual world that every kid sows around them as a kid and dream of nurturing it day and night slowly and steadily begins to fade as the stealth layer around them becomes translucent to the grim light of the external world as with the influence of people around them. Childhood sees no priority in life, no society, no discrimination, no alter ego, no guilt, no good, no bad, no feelings but just happiness in its purest form. The serenity of the thoughts is just like a tea garden infinite as it may seem and green and dense.

As we grow the complex ionic power that rules the mind makes us practical, we begin to see the world around us from the point of view of others we tend to inculcate the experience of others in ourselves more like a short cut to happiness, a pursuit of happiness that we are not aware of, a state of happiness which we don’t know will make us happy or not. The turbulence of the flow is so strong that we tend to flow with it leaving our own individuality and own peace of mind and our own self behind us and just flow with the current. The flaw of uncertainty creeps in as we are not sure of the path that we are taking and the destination of our happiness. The turbulence whirl’s us, drops us in whirlpool, gives you an adulterated air to breath, you tend to become myopic, there is a thick layer of experience of yours and others that acts as specs to watch out the things that happens around us. You become judgmental from these experiences; you tend to split things around you as good or bad, right or wrong. These are just like incremental superimposed thoughts that you tend to pick up on your way to your happiness. This thick layer of personal experience and the experience that you pick on your way from others corrodes your childhood in short your happiness.

And then at a certain point in your life you realize this and more over you question yourselves, why? You, try to run away from this question, you try to find solace in the company of people whom you don’t know and who don’t know you, just to save the strain that this question might give to you. You fear will that will you be able to articulate yourself to someone what you are, why you are, who you are, what do you want, what are your dreams and what do you want in your pot of happiness. You go back to your days when you were kid, try to find out the answers you know you will never be able to find. You tend to lie to yourself about yourself. You try to explain them, they listen and put in there own perspective to it and you find calmness, but you know internally that this calmness will not rest for eternity for it’s never over and when again will you be alone you will be embarked by the same insane question why?

What exactly is the happiness that we want to pursue? Is it that we are more robotic now and tend to pick up the ambiance that makes us feel cozy or is it the long listing of tangible goods that serves up to make us feel comfortable, or is it the people around you who don’t know you but tend to make you smile most of the time or may be you smile just because you don’t want to be sad. The answer to the question is still unanswered, for all listing mentioned above are just to keep you away from thinking why?

Its ironic how strange the god has created the world around us, when we are babies and are not inculcated with the speech that’s comprehensible by the others we don’t understand there pain or there needs as we don’t understand what they want to say or why they are in pain, and at that point there needs are so simple, food, sleep etc. and then as we grow up we our needs are so more complex that we tend to feel short of words to make them realize it to someone. For babies, mom is the one who understands them the most and as we grow??

In the end it’s about the strength you have within to face this question and to find your happiness, you can just run away and not think about it. Destiny does exist, yes it does, but destiny does exist for everyone, destiny is a more of the biggest lie that you can lie to yourselves. Destiny comes when hope is over. And I know that we all know that.

And yeah, day after tomorrow is Christmas, Merry Christmas to all of you. May you have a wonderful year ahead.

~Varun

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